distinction-less

there is a silent emptiness.a placidity. or is it peace restored after months of storm?
iam far away from my place but yet it seems so near.
the memories haunt,the house it calls.
yet im here for the better future.
a happy period-that of learning.
tears could not move that whom i called my beloved.
to whom i could give up my life for.
sometimes i question the god,oh,what is that which i have done?
illusion-why is it i who falls for it time and again?
pain-was it none but me whom you gave this unto?
im starting over a new beginning
the rise of dawn which will hopefully kill the dark past.
confusion-yet it ranges above.
but its just a phase they say.
so im content.